Hi Laurie - thanks for the birthday wish - even if it is late by a day.
I did break down and called C today to tell her about cookie and to ask for some of Big B's old things that she was not using. she was really supprised that I got cookie and wanted to see her - I took her over and she watched her for me while I went on my flying lession and worked out and then I went back to pick her up and pick up the items I needed.
C took me to lunch for a belated birthday dinner and we had plesant talk - I basicly told her that I finally accepted that she was right and that it was over, but that I did want to be friends if she wanted to. I did tell her tho that I thought that friends took their friends feelings into consideration and would not intentionally do or say anything that they knew would hurt - she said that she did not want to hurt me and did not know what to say when we were together and felt that when she said anything at all that it hurt. I told her that I was ok with general conversation but to please not rub my face in her situation. I had to go get my checks and then fly and work out so I left, but she said we would talk more when I came back.
I picked up my checks from the bookkeeper (not getting them from C any more) and talked w/ her for a few and she told me that C told her several times that she was concerned about me and wanted to call but did not want to hurt me again. also said that C asked her alot if she had called me and checked with me on various things.
When I picked up Cookie after working out we just chitchatted in the living room some and I notice her really smiling when Big B would lick my face and ears and also when Cookie curled up in mylap. She commented about the markings of Big B and Cookie and that they would make beautiful puppys. She also told me about her meeting about selling her business and she thought positive things about the meeting. We never did do any more talking about us tho.
When I left I mentioned that we did not talk any about us but I said we could do that later. She said that maybe we should wait til we each get over the humps in the road in our businesses and then talk. She then brought Big B over to Cookie and said "Big B, say goodbye to your future wife" She then gave me a little kiss on the cheek and I left.
I thought there were several small baby step positives in the evening. I will keep on with my life but will not close the door.
