What the?

[BFloat]

I have been sick for the past week. Ugh. I hate being sick! But on a happier note.. I'm in love! And it only cost me $35. I bought myself a labeler and it is life changing. For reals!

So H has been sick too. He had a lingering fever (4 days) and I told him to go see the Dr. He had been txting me asking for advice on what to do for the fever that just didn't seem to go away. Finally I told him to see a Dr because I didn't like the fever bit. Turns out its strep. Today he texts asking if everyone is ok.. No symptoms? I told him kids are fine. And so he asks why I always avoid including myself as a concern when he asks.

Seriously... The mind of these WAS is bizarre. I didn't answer the question. Just told him about my new love. What the?

I know things are different. In the past I would have answered and probably end up talking about my feelings.. And how hurt I might have felt.. Blah blah.. These days I feel there are just some stuff better left unsaid. Like the time he fell asleep and didn't pick up the kids from school (his dad was always late when he was younger and I know it really bothered him). I felt very upset for the kids.. Initially. But I didn't say anything. Because in the end, I really didn't need to. Because saying something would have been just for my own satisfaction of having said something. He felt bad enough.. Didn't need me to make him feel even worse.

A lot of things changed when I hit 40. I always understood how precious time is but I really feel it. With this weird sense of urgency.