My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Thank you Raliced. Yours is one of the situations I've been following and I've definitely been inspired and motivated by your posts. Believe me I am trying as hard as I can to look inward and keep my focus on the little ones but I do tend to lose my focus and start thinking about the M. Full-time jobs in my field are tough to obtain right now, so I admit that's part of my stress. Everyone is going to freelancers and contractors. I have a lot of contacts in my field though and a year ago I was more picky about "which company" I would work for which I think annoyed my H and now I'm way less of a snob about the whole thing and accepting of the fact that a professional job in my field in this economy is a great thing to have regardless of where it's at. A major benefit to this situation with H is it's actually made me more humble and I do honestly think I needed that. But now I'm like OK, lesson learned, God! Let's move on! And yeah, that's just not going to happen right now is it?