And I know a single incident isn't going to change but I had soooo many by now, that she is so far out of the window. I created myself a very dark whole.
I confirmed all her fears that I'm not the person she wants. Slowly but surely. I confirmed again and again. She might be like even if he changes now, he is weak.

And even now I'm calculating odds what the chances are that I can turn sth around.

She even told me today she would've rather married him.


I have to do the biggest change of my life. A huge 180.

Last edited by Complex; 01/15/15 08:52 PM.
Me 32 (German) Wife 28
T 3yrs M 2yrs
Moved to US for W
No kids
BD 6/2014
In house separation
Confirmed EA 1/2015
(ongoing since BD)
OM not ready
Real D talk started 1/27/15