Mozza, I swear we are twins separated at birth. I had the exact same thoughts a few months ago, and now I see how wrong I was (although I didn't know WAW was having A). My W is DEFINITELY a not a conflict avoided, yet she held in her feelings for the last two years until she met someone and couldn't take it with me anymore. And I second what Sandi says about her thoughts about you...especially when she knows you're still wanting to cling to her (and if it's obvious on here, she probably knows it, too), the last thing she's doing is testing you. It CAN change, but making it the focus of your life will only delay a potential change, or maybe even eliminate the possibility.
Keep walking the DB path, though. Someday it will click for you and you will be so glad you stuck with it. As we know, I was a habitual pursuer, yet I still love the path I walked now.
Me 38, WAW 30 D11 (former marriage) S2 T 8 years M 3 years BD 8/20/23 S 8/20/23
