Bug, I don't understand what you mean by losing myself.
Reread a couple of your recent posts from the perspective of you advising someone who has just come to the boards. I saw someone mentioned the other day about your wife being "done for now", which you appeared to accept. It's tough, especially having some success, but you're back to square one. Look after yourself. Decide what YOU want.
Me: 31, W: 29 T: 4 M: 2 Kids: 3 (SS: 7, SD: 4, D: 3) Separated, still living together: Nov 2013 Separate bedrooms: Feb 2014 W working away; kids with me: Nov 2014