barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

I do feel that I have lost my power in this. The plans that I had will not work now.

She did come home, nice to kids, tried to have her work story sessions with me, but I was having trouble listening to them. I couldn't stop my mind from wandering.

She laid down and went to sleep. No conversation.

I may anti db and pressure her for complete openness and honesty so we can end this charade.

Another sleepless night for me. I am torturing myself not to repair this destroyed M - not even thinking of that, but to protect my kids.