I agree with Wet.

You also worried a lot about the D papers when just asking a direct question would have given you an answer.

Dbing doesn't mean you never ask a question, especially when not asking could have serious impact on your life.

What's the fear that's holding you back?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss