No, you didn't blow it. I think your situation is very difficult for you because you had SO MANY positives early on, great conversations, great sex, lots of reconnecting, then finding out about OG, and her really stepping back. Unfortunately, you are now where so many of us are, back in limbo...
I think maybe you really need to back off and go dim, not be so available to her. I find it so difficult to talk to them, etc. when they are like this. She is still in such alien mode, you cannot listen to anything she says. Now that you have shown her how you feel, I would not be angry around her anymore... Vernetta told me when they say something hurtful to you, and you don't want to respond, either agree to stop the conversation, or say I'll have to think about that.
Hang in there odga. Unfortunately, I know exactly how you feel. Time to take care of you right now. Let your sitch go for now...
Relax. Appreciate. Be calm. Laugh. Enjoy. Be secure. Be loving. Be loved. Don't personalize. Don't ASSume. Accept. Be grateful.
