My apologies for the lack of response. We were away for the holidays and traveled for work for the first week of January.
I agree with all of you. I feel this emptiness and pain from time to time b/c I don't trust her fully. Ironically, she is being more transparent with me and I am confident that the A is done. If it were ongoing, she would be in NYC a lot more than she is. Her actions and words show a different W than from this past summer. We ML probably once per week although I tend to be the instigator.
We have talked about the trust issue and her feedback continues to be that she feels like a prisoner. She said that she cannot live that way and cannot live under my thumb. Therefore she still has not provided her phone code to me.
Are we having fun? Yes, 70-80% of the time but it is pretty clear that I am more into the R than she is.
in a way, as it has been stated by others, this R is half baked. It needs to go back into the oven. She needs to miss me more and believe that she is losing me. She does not feel that.
Me: 40, W: 40 M: 15, T: 18 D - 10, S - 7 D announcement 6/7/2014 A discovered 7/20/2014 (but denied by W) Still living together and sharing same bed