MLCer and EA w/ OW

[Jer2911]

Just had a thought about my W not being "the same person"...

I do feel this so strongly and that may be one reason why I am not completely melting down over this upcoming trip that she is taking to spend a week and a half with the OW (to, I suspect, move the EA to a PA). This person is not my W because my W would not be doing this to me or to our kids. The trip -- outside of the country -- which she can reveal to no one because the EA is completely secret to everyone including her closest friends -- is so freaking reckless and absurd.

It's so bizarre because I love her so much and obviously don't want her to be with anyone else, but with this upcoming trip I just feel so detached from it... In other words, NAJ1964 and Wonka: I won't have M.E.'s "Bring Me Some Water" playing on repeat the entire time she's on this trip ;-) Seriously, I'm not happy about the trip, but deep inside somewhere I don't feel like it's really my W that is making this trip.

Does that make any sense?