Strong EA after 2 years of marriage. Need advice.

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Thanks Train, I'll check it out asap.

I'm not only mad at myself but at her too. She is completely playing down that she lied to me big time. She said she told me that there were feelings..that's how she dropped the bomb back then. And then she just "stretched" the truth. And that I think of things that aren't there. And she doesn't trust me that I won't tell her family, and if I do she will hate me forever and she thinks I'll just play "angel" with them and team up with them.

She knows she crossed the line but she doesn't feel that much guilt it feels like. Completely unreasonable and disrespectful again. And me idiot I'm hugging her saying its ok. It's NOT ok. I was weak for a moment.

All script?

She lying all along again. And I feel like I catered her. Now I want to reverse it. I find myself in the same damn loop all the time Am I completely stupid or lacking self control?