So I'm sitting here, having just signed 2 major parts of my divorce papers (child custody and child support). I am of course relieved that we have this piece done and am a little surprised at how anti-climatic it all feels. My STBX has just agreed to let go of 80% of his children's childhoods. I spent yesterday going back and forth with discrepancies that I noticed and correcting errors the paralegal made. She asked me if I was a lawyer. Under the circumstances, I guess I should take that as a compliment.
You know I accepted pretty early on that he no longer loved me and that he wanted to get away from me. And while I hate it, I get how once he crossed that line into the first affair, it was sort of a downward spiral from there and that, in regards to me, his head has never really been in the same place since.
I don't get the changes in him as a father. He has talked a good game since BD( I want to be an active dad, etc), but his actions don't match his words. I sent him an email last night regarding D6 and her extracurricular activities asking for his input on what we should sign her up for this spring, how much was too much etc. All I got was a reply that whatever I thought was best was fine with him.
Anyway - there is still a property settlement that needs to be signed off on, but that one is non controversial - so I presume it should be coming shortly. My angst was around the custody issues, so I'm feeling peaceful today that this is resolved.
I guess that old "How the heck did we get here" feeling is rearing its head a bit today.
