I read it and I can't believe it. Who is this HP that is seating and cheering up his S12. Who is this guy that is coming out of a shell an showing he is a strong person who can handle all this nightmare, be strong for his S, work, clean, cook, go o with his day, do his GAL, post answers on his tread here, have goals to become a better person... Wow, you are doing it HP.
And you alone are deciding your own happiness, it's wonderful you are getting to this place in your life. You stopped criticizing yourself. I don't know if you noticed that.
Your words are more positives, you are getting a hold on your own feelings. And I see you know it hurts, you know you would like to work things out with W. but you are cutting the umbilical cord, you are becoming more independent.
I AM SO PROUD OF YOU... I know how hard it is to wake up every day and put a smile face forward, but the more we do it or fake it, the more we live it. It became us by definition.
Your wife has many issues unresolved with herself and this is not your concern or business right now. Unfortunately, she will need to find herself, her purpose, values, inner center. You will probably see a lot more struggles coming from her. But it is still not your problem, she needs to figure it out herself and in her own time.
Again, it's hard to see someone we love to go through it. But we also need to remember that part of all this was caused by out actions and interactions with our S, and now we need to give time for them to dissect the mess. You are doing you work on yourself, she needs to do the same. It will be her choice to change or not.
Now that you are in a better place, try to always remember the feeling. When you feel angry and frustrated... what happen inside you. And when you don't react so fast, be calm and in control of you emotions, what happen inside you?
When this happen, you can choose the outcome, now you are ready to make that choice.
Nice dad you have, giving you a book that can help you. So fantastic how things work, you are becoming even a nicer dad to your son, and then you have a nice dad yourself. Life is so beautiful isn't it?
I am glad you will see the movie... have some tissues around, you will need it. I cried most of the movie. It's wonderful and the message is very powerful.
In my sitch things go up and down all the time, my H too drives me insane. One day he says I love you, a few days later he is still sure about the D. So much to take all the time. But, I have been learning along side you. Through your tread, I applied many things 25, Sandy, Wonka and others wrote to you. Things are getting easier for me too.
About the other lady. I would just say that it would be better to think about. If you still want to work out your R with your W then why to risk. Your W could find out and it would spin out of control since it is the same person that were in your life before and you W knows about. Be careful with what you ask for and don't do something just at the heat of the moment.
You are a man of God, you believe and have faith, so be aware that when you start being closer to him, evil will show it's face and provoke you. Be aware that it doesn't want you to be happy and close to your God.
Babe steps HP. I can't stress more of how proud you are making all these ladies here. You are becoming a man only a fool will leave.
Be strong, be happy, if you fall... stand up again, if you fail... start all over.
