just got back from Dinner date - When I got to her house she was still working on a client file that needed to be done and taken to client before 6am tomorrow. I waited for her to finish (she was going to set it asisde and go but I told her to go ahead and finish as business before pleasure)
we went to dinner and we chit chatted for a few. Almost out of the blue she asked me if I was going to go to a specialtist about my Testostearone problem. We talked about that some and I assured her that I would get that fixed. She said she talked about that with Sis (the nurse) and she said it could be just something minor. I also told her that right after starting the AD's I kinda stopped using my supplements for about a week and that was just before the Dr. appt. I had forgotten that.
She also brought up about Sunday and wanted to know if she had done something to make me angry. I told her that with me sitting on the porch swing and her sitting on the steps like we were sitting when she dropped the bomb and for the first time I just got angry with her. Then told her that when we left the porch I started to mellow down some - I then said that I should not have gotten angry and I was sorry. She said that if I had told my counselor that she would likely say that that was normal and to not beat myself up over it. After dinner we went to the car and she thanked me for dinner and I bent over and kissed her but she kinda held her lips tight and did not return the kiss.
As we were driving home she mentioned that she had talked with her counselor about me going to her too. She told me her counselor's hours and that the C would have no problem seeing me too but that she would not discuss either of us with the other. I said that I would not expect her to.
When we got home she gave me some papers I needed to take home and then said that I had better get home. She seemed very supprised as she gave her head a little shake but did not ask me to stay. She did step over to me and give me a hug and really went into a good tight hug. After a little I gave her a kiss and it started to get kinda good but she broke off the kiss and went back to a hug. I held the hug for a while and then said I had better go. As I was leaving she again asked me to give her a call when I got home. She also thanked me again for dinner and I said that next time she needed to come over my way as she has not been at my apartment in a while. she said that that is what she was thinking.
When I got home I gave her a call - told her that I rally thought she looked good with her wedge heels and beige slacks and black blouse. She said she had to match my black shirt. Said it did not look like johhny Cash and that she liked it. We ended on a plesant note.
Will plan to chit chat on next few contacts before another date. Give her a chance to aske me.
All in all - I feel that the positives outweighed the negitives, but that negitive of not kissing me may be a biggie.
