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[bravo61]

well just spent about an 1 1/2 hrs of alone time w/XW. it was a good time. she came over after the kids were asleep. when she came in, i helped her off w/her jacket and scarf and hung them up. turns out she had made an offer for a house and it was accepted. she's stressed, excited, nervous, etc. she even said that she would love to have me live in the same area if i can.

we watched the show and shared a beer. we had a good time and smiled and laughed together. i noticed a couple of times she was kinda looking off into space thinking hard. when she was getting ready to go, she gave me a big hug and thanked me for watching the show with her and had a good time. i helped her into her jacket and wrapped the scarf around her neck, or tried to but didn't do it quite right. walked her out to the car (what i've always done-Southern gentleman safety thing) and she wanted another hug before getting into her car. kissed her forehead and she left.

part of me wonders if this time spent together is her wanting a ringside seat to watch to see if i really am different without committing and/or risking hurt and her heart.

oh well, nothing i can do about that. not gonnna get my hopes us but it was nice and if more came of it that would be nice. but i have no expectations of that. she does know that i will never be just "a friend".

one thing that bothered me was that she said that S has really been down the past couple of weeks. i know its because the reality of the situation is hitting him hard but i guess she can't/won't see that. unfortunately, it's not for me to point that out. she has to come to that conclusion herself.

hope everyone is doing well.
Good luck out there...