Jefe - Climbing out of the mire - #8

[Jefe]

Wow, that's 2 thumbs up on a little courting. I've been feeling like I want to try it too.

We have been either talking or texting literally, almost all day. Situations today have warranted it but it's been nice. Pleasant. Even when we disagreed on something, it just flew right by without incident. I was very proud of myself for being cognizant of my current emotion or thoughts and being able to direct them where I wanted them to go rather than my mouth operating with complete abandon. I was able to hear Hope414 in my head from the last time I blew it really bad back in Oct telling me how with the current status of my marriage I simply did not have the luxury to make these kind of mistakes.

I stopped by the apartment to grab one of the kiddo's this evening (It's Mommy's night tonight and both are home sick with strep) because my D7 wanted to spend the night with daddy instead of mommy, which is fine by both of us. While I was there in the parking lot D7 kept nagging mommy to "hug daddy". She kept repeating it and my wife kept declining. She then asked: "Don't you love daddy?" My wife replied: "Yes, I love daddy." This is a huge improvement over exactly 3 weeks ago when her response to the same question was not as pleasant.

We both left, me home with D7, wife to AlAnon (Yay!!! she's been catching every meeting she can make!) She called just before she went into the meeting and wanted to talk. We talked for several minutes and she was using the same familiar and future language that she was using back before this all got bad.

Peter, I am going to pray long and hard before I make a single move and let God guide this. Otherwise, I WILL move too fast and too aggressively.

Good grief, I'm all nervous just like I was when I first asked her to meet me at the little place on the corner.

Quick (very quick) recap of the positive movement I have seen just since Christmas week:
1)Started attending church again (not ours, but who cares)
2)Deleted confirmed OM3 and "pals" from FB
3)Spent almost 8 hours w/ us for Christmas
4)Has been calling just to talk on multiple occasions
5)Deleted suspected OM2 from FB
6)Abruptly quit Tues night pool league (where OM3 played)
7)Openly flirting including making an obvious stare at my package wile making comments. ;-)
8)Appears to have deleted chat app she was using with OM1 (the deal that started this all in motion back in Aug)
9)Spending more time with the kids including coming by the house and spending time here
10)Making AlAnon meetings whenever possible