Just need to vent... I really hate monster W and what she is doing to our family.
I know this is a process she needs to go through, and that I am/need to be on my own journey -- but I'm feeling a lot of anger today over how this will tear our family apart.
I'm also amazed at how much lying she is doing to everyone -- including her therapist... I never knew that she was capable of lying so often and so well to everyone -- including her closest family and friends. Definitely not living with the same person I knew and loved so deeply before October. This version of her is astonishingly capable of things I never dreamed she would/could do -- things that go against the moral compass of the person I thought I knew.
I'm really curious if or when all of the lies and deception will blow up in her face... I mean, I wonder if there is a point where all of the lies will become too much for her to bear... I'm not even sure right now if she is aware that she is lying. And these are pretty big lies... I guess I shouldn't worry about it. I know I need to trust that in time she will experience the consequences of her choices and actions, and there is nothing I can do to make that happen sooner than it is supposed to happen.
Need to go off now and scream at photos of her then do some silent meditation/prayer before I have to go pick the kids up from school. God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference...
Me 48, Her 50 (Same-Sex Couple) 3 Children Together: 9.5 years before BD BD: Week of 10/27/14 ExW started EA w OW 9/2014 ExW married OW 12/2015
