I thought everything was okay.....(Part 3)

[MCS]

Mozza,

We got something going tonight, it's like old times

I get the micromanaging, I did it at first, but I've tried to be much more STFU about it recently. A lot of it is ranting here and that is all. Also, thanks for the transitionary statement, i didn't think about that really. I guess it's the same as the phase of the S, they change over time. It's a good thought for me to sleep on. I appreciate it.

Yeah, for the R with the OM, regardless of whether it's there or not, I do think that it could cause an issue years later. Again, just my opinion. My niece is 18 and over the last year or so started to figure out what happened to my brother and his XW (D 8 years ago) There was an A there, he ended up marrying OW. Anyway, now niece having some emotional issues and she blames it on resentment of the D and the remarrying, but it could be anything she would blame if it wasn't this.

As for the schedule, it's not a matter of principle for me, but that's probably how I'm stating it here. My kids are struggling with 'missing' the other person in the 4/3 day schedule we have right now. I hear about it most nights and during the exchange. They're doing better than they were before, but they haven't gotten the swing of this thing yet. I don't think more days in between would be good for them

Alas, the last thing for tonight is my wife getting her way. Yep, that's a big part of my resentment with her right now and it's really centered around just one thing. The kids. I am so incredibly infuriated that she has decided that I am only entitled to spending half of my kids life with them and vice versa. I got no opportunity to try and make this right with her for them. It selfish, plain and simple.

It's my biggest fear out of all of this, bar none. I would hand the house, my money, everything over to her today if I could have the kids, but that wouldn't be fair to them. It's why I stayed in the house, to try to make this the best situation for them in the current circumstances. That's just it, Im a grown man, and can take whatever the outcome is, but this decision that she unilaterally made for them, it eats me up everyday. That's the deepest pain. I'm not sure how to deal with that.