My W said the same thing about our M last summer. "We are S in my mind and in my Heart". I told her, like you did, I am still M and will continue to be until the papers are signed. Things haven't gotten better since that time.
I used all that time to work on myself. It has helped me.
One question for you What do you mean when you say " I will lose a lot of time on saving the M"?
stay strong.
Me 47/W 34 T 16 M 13 No kids BD 6/2013 W asked that I move out 6/2013 I moved back and W is upset with this 12/2013 separate beds not much talking Served D Complaint 5/2014 W moved out 9/27/2014