XW called and said that she had S because school called and he had a fever. she brought him by to drop him off to me. he was miserable. gave him a big hug when he came through the door. we chit chatted a little (she told me of her house hunt) and she asked if we could watch the show tomorrow nite after i put the kids in bed. i said sure and noticed that she was lookin around while talking to me. she noticed that i had a slide show on the computer monitor of a lot of our pics through the years. didn't say anything but i could see her make a mental note.
anyways, we walked her out as we were going to pick up D from daycare. she opened her arms and i said S go get your hug. she smiled and said it was for me. he hugged her and then i hugged her (10 second hug with arms around waist) and kissed her forehead. when i pulled back, my hands were still on her waist and she had a smile on her face when i looked in her eyes. in that moment, i so wanted to kiss her.
S reached out to hug me and pulled her in as well, it felt awesome!! and i know she felt it too, she kinda squeezed me in and my face was pressed against her neck. walked her over to her car and opened the door for her. she reached out for another hug.
forgot to mention on sun, when we left she said "bye, i love you all".
it is what it is, can't control any of it, only continue to work on me. it still [censored] though!
M40 XW35 M11 T15 S9 D5 Bomb 6/3/14 Papers del 10/3/14 D final 12/5/14
I wish I could love you and make you believe it 'Cause that's all you ever wanted From me
