The anger isn't all about your H, there's something else.

My other question was what are you doing to change your work on your anger?

Have you heard of no contact? NC? It gives you an opportunity to get your emotions under control before you have to deal with him or want to deal with him. Could you do that?

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss