Divorced and moving out.....still hopeful

[NewB3]

Your description of the drop off sounds...not so good. S4 doesn't seem to be comfortable. You and XW should be working together to help him atdrop off. Its already hard enough for him to understand.

Working with XW, perhaps going inside with them and being civil would work well instead of the scenario you wrote about. What's are you doing for YOU to feel better and become all that you want in your new life?

Peace...

This was ONE bad drop off. Usually it goes pretty well. We do work together, but her going inside and not being "available" when he goes in??? I mean he closed the door, I went to my car. He came back out, unknowingly to her. OKAY, maybe she thought I was still dealing with him and went to the kitchen, or maybe she thought I was going to visit for a few. I was done.
For me, I am focusing on my new home. Cooking more. Trying to focus on my kids and not her. I have emotionally drained myself trying to "detach" from her. I know that is the only way to get her to see what she has and has not. I need to just make the leap. She will feel it, but then what? Is it really that complicated? She is focusing on many things to avoid (it appears). However, the S4 and I are a constant reminder. She got what she wanted. I have been the best I can through this, but am just tired of the game. If she wants me, I am here, just not showing all my cards. Again, I am dark 90% of the time. Giving her the space she needs to see what she needs to. I do not run to the phone when she calls, nor text back as soon as I can. I wait and let her feel the distance. She is not the most important thing in my life anymore. She threw that away. She threw me away. My love for her was something I never have felt before. She had never had anyone treat her/ romance her/ care for her, like I did. Now, here we are. We cannot even be comfortable around each other for the raw feelings and unsureness of where we stand with each other. I am personally trying to make her see where she stands with me. She comes 4th in my list of priorities.