barely holding on - 7

[u-turn]

More good and bad signs (I am still trying to file away the bad signs and not focus on them)

She is still pursuing and I feel like it is almost too fast. She is definitely trying to have more physical touch with me - not sexual, but just hugging, she layered with me on the couch, she wanted me to hold her in bed - good signs and normal prior to BD. She complimented me for some of my work.

She really seems to be trying to reconnect with us. She ended up going with me to see my brother - and that went really well. I had a lot of fun and showed her an outgoing and fun me.

These are good signs:

bad sign (maybe just weird): she brought a shirt home to wash and give back to OM. This could be an indication that she is parting ways with him. She'd have no reason to tell me about it or could have hidden it from me. She does not and never has "rubbed my nose" in this. She seems to be being honest with me just to be honest with me.

She is away at a business meeting for two nights. This was usually her time to see OM. I don't know now.

So much I don't know.

I do get to spend a lot of time with kids which is great.