But I'm also terrified that I will let that fear keep me from ever having what I want, which is a home of my own to raise the children in. Stability. The ease of relaxing into a space and not thinking of it as temporary.
Maybell- You can do all of this. You can. There will probably be bumps and hiccups along the way, but you will get through them and you will guide and protect your children.
Don't let the fear keep you from investigating the possibilities. That house was on the market last spring? That sounds like a potentially motivated seller to me. And there is nothing to be lost by looking into it further.
The only practical thing I would advise is that right now your H doesn't want to fight and wants to be reasonable. From what you've written, there doesn't seem to be a reason to think that would change - but you never know. So I would certainly be pretty aggressive about finding a atty you are comfortable with and getting the process going while everyone is on the same page.
This is your time to build the life that you want. Don't let your fears stand in your way.
