But I'm also terrified that I will let that fear keep me from ever having what I want, which is a home of my own to raise the children in. Stability. The ease of relaxing into a space and not thinking of it as temporary.
I'm terrified. But I can either stay too scared to move or I can grasp what is, after all, a reasonable desire, and put myself in a place to tackle more reasonable fears.
BTW, one of his fears, which surprised me greatly, was that I would pack up the kids and leave town. I told him he was more likely to go than I was. He said, "Oh, I enjoy my job and working with my boss. I can see myself here 3-4 more years."
That doesn't even get D11 to driving age.
I'm so scared. I'm not attaching expectations, I'm setting a goal. I recognize there are pros and cons to that particular goal. But I really want to live a life I can be proud of, not one where I kept hiding in fear.
Last edited by Maybell; 01/12/1503:22 PM.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
