My waking nightmare

[Lorelai]

Ending on a high note. Was feeling really down today and my PMA was positively PMS! Even ranted/complained a little on my own thread and a couple of other threads.

Now onto my night: Got my youngest to bed pretty easily since she missed her nap. But I noticed I was a little surly as I was putting S4 to bed and was thinking as I was reading stories how I had to go out into the snow and drag out the garbage since tomorrow is garbage day and isn't H a jerk for not being here for these things and poor me I'm all alone and blah blah blah. Well, after S4 was in bed I went around the house and gathered all the garbage/recycling, opened the garage and started to haul everything out when I noticed what an absolutely beautiful night it was. Fresh snow had fallen and it was still snowing, the cold snap had broke and it was actually a little warm. It was magical. All was quiet and glittering. I ran inside, grabbed S4 out of bed and put his snowsuit on quickly. He was grinning and excited and asking me what the surprise was— we went outside and played in this gorgeous, peaceful wonderland. He loved seeing the snow falling beneath the streetlights and the snow-covered trees. It was such a special moment and I felt bad for being little cranky today and being in such a hurry to get him to bed so I could get to my "chores" and complain to myself that H isn't here to help. Tomorrow might be hard. I don't know what it will bring. But I had a lovely moment with my child tonight and that's what I'm ending with. I wouldn't be able to see/have moments like this during this separation without this board. Thank you!