Singing in the Lifeboat

[daring]

Thanks Job- you're right I am running myself ragged. But I slept in both days this weekend and an trying to get back to healthy eating to keep my stress from getting the best of me.
Mom is hanging in there, I see some slight improvement in memory but it's slow going. Had to dig through her apt today to find my power of attorney papers but finally got them. That should help with getting her supplemental coverage.

123Gwen- me too! Much better to walk on smooth surfaces!

So today was interesting-
H came by and took home D13s friend for me who stayed the night as I was up all night getting calls about patients. When he came back with D13 to get her stuff
he noticed the Christmas tree was still there even though all decorations had been taken off. He asked what I was going to do and I said I need to find someone to come pick it up. He jumped right in and took it outside, then cleaned up the floor with sweeping and mopping. I thanked him for his help.
Then D13 was throwing a fit about going to his house because S17 doesn't have to. He waited to let S17 and D13 talk some.
I left him alone sitting in the living room while I went about making the crock pot chili I had planned for the day.
He went upstairs to check on D13 and I left them alone. After 40 min or so I went up there and checked on her. They were still talking and she was saying how stressful it is to go back and forth and she doesn't like leaving her family and just wants to stay home. Then she said its not fair. I said I understand, I don't like how the situation is either but that's how it is and we need to find a way to make the best of it. I reminded her that she needs her dad and to spend time with him. After a bit she begrudgingly went but was being quite sassy with H.
I know the situation with the kids is affecting him, I can see it. And it's more than before because he's not as selfish and oblivious as he used to be ( though still has a long way to go). I wanted to show support for the fact that D13 needs to spend time with both of us. But it's up to him to fix that relationship.

I was proud of myself again today. I felt detached, not like I was having to force it either. I appreciated his help but I realized it's his way of feeling useful and means nothing right now.

On with my life- this week I plan to exercise, get good sleep, and do some GAL on the weekend.