Thank you Wonka. Your questions are very valuable and I'll answer them here.
I've been thinking and learning along the lines of your questions this entire weekend. I'm a little overwhelmed while at the same time thinking I'm making this more complicated than it needs to be.
So I'm tired. Tired of doing what isn't working. I know something's working when I'm feeling happy and energetic and I'm choosing the thoughts and actions that feed my happiness. It's a conscious thing.
So...
What is causing me pain?
My focus on my W. Simple as that.
What is making you feel angry?
My focus on my W not meeting my expectations.
What would doing the work look like to me?
Slowing down... examining my thoughts... questioning if a thought supports my R goals... refocusing on the one thought that works... "I love myself".... asking "If I love myself, what would I do?"... doing it... repeat.
What do you hope to achieve from that standpoint?
Happiness and satisfaction at the end of the day that I moved closer to my 6 month goals.
What kind of man do you want to be?
I want to be a centered, fun, relaxed, motivated, comfortable, purposeful, and secure man.
What kind of father do you want to be?
A father that is an example to his son so he can achieve the above.