This post is so powerful I cant tell you what a gem it is for me. I have gone through hoops for this kind of gem. I really see more and more how grounded detachment can be for me to be successful. Im still so early in my sitch. I wonder how can I have the patirnce to see out what I want. Yes none of us need our r. But with that said Im not on this site for kicks. I wanna know how I can strip down to the bare essentials in my life to have what I want and keep it. Im not here to vent well I am but Im mostly here to change my thinking process on life. I have came to some realizations through my children and EXh that have cut me to the core. At the same time I have longed for my family to be healthy and happy. I wanted to always have the best marriage ever. I had NNOOOO Clue on how...I even took family classes in college. I have tried with the same ole same ole time and time again. And to be honest my exh tried to believe in me. He wanted to trust that I can save us thats why he came back after the divorce was final. Of course him losing his job and questions about us selling our home became most heated and we both handled it wrong.
My point is I have to detach to save us all. We have kids no matter what he is a big factor in my life. We have shared custody. Well Im grateful for a chance to change. My ex might not be giving me one inch of a chance right now but hey I had these dreams and I loved before him and I will love after him if God has it that way.
I wanna give up I wanna gie in to my old ways or even the 37 No Nos but...Im pretty much becoming my own woman again and I am forver thankful for my gains. Despite my nights of crying out in excruciating pain. I like last night got up and proclaimed trust in the almighty. I do not see whats to come but Im certain he has me covered.
GAL ON!!
Me:34/EXH:29 Kids: S13, D5, D4 M/o7 HaskedforDgavetohim6/14 decided to work on get remarried counseling. Kids work went back to old routine. Left Nov 10 2014 OWDec92014
