Busting this Divorce - 90 Days NC #5

[HPoirot]

Oh HP your son is crying out. He needs your to be his rock. You have gotten great advice here. Listen to it. Life if short. You hold the key to your happiness and future. Plan a bucket list for you and your son.

You cannot keep blaming your wife for your unhappiness. I'm sure she gave you many waring signs that she was frustrated and unhappy. Be the best man you can be. If it's not her then in time you will find love again.

It's ok to be on your own.
Cheers

Thank you Karma for you nice post. I was about to type "I'm trying to be my boy's rock," but I'm choosing to stop trying and just doing it everyday.

So today I am his rock. We'll go out for breakfast and have a good time. Then his mom will be by later to take him to his friends house.

I'll plan a menu for this week and go grocery shopping. I'll also buy some new clothes.

Than I'll cook and watch some football.

I have not bought alcohol for a little bit. I thought it might be nice to enjoy some this evening watching the game. I don't think I need that though.

Instead of alcohol, noticed I've been eating junk food and soda. I have put back on some weight. I will get back on my eating discipline.

Also I slept very late today. Again that's no good for my PMA as I think about my W and my hurt lying in bed.

I thought about how my W is very angry with me. There is a terrible argument documented in the Denver thread where the angry W says many of the things I've heard from my angry W. It is here...

http://www.divorcebusting.com/forums/ubbthreads.php?ubb=showflat&Number=2157757#Post2157757

It's good reading to understand how your angry W may be thinking.

It got me thinking of the long road I have if I'm to show my W I'm the best choice for her after 7 years of taking her for granted. Denver also took his W for granted for 7 years and treated her terribly.

After that argument, it was another year until Denver's W moved home.

I just had my argument like with with my W 2 weeks ago.

Even though she looks miserable and cries and seems to be struggling to start her new life... it's not enough for her to even think about coming back.

So I choose to finally get serious about consistently being better me.

My goal today is to keep it up all day.

Off to breakfast at the diner.