Maybell XXVII

[Faith2b]

Well Maybell

This is a rough endeavor for sure. I dont think you were at all unprepared or unequipped. I just wanted to point out a couple of things. Now that your visit has been accomplished. While it seemed good and bad on his part not surprising he does not have half nor 1 percent of the support and love that you do. Also dont forget he made a huge step. Dont look at anything in normal eyes because nothing is normal and you have to have a beginners mindset. Dont forget that you have the power to change yourself and that will be the greatest gift you can give to all. Also I know that hearing the actual things he has done may be helpful but please reconsider how they may make you feel. The things he has done are symptoms. They are only the cancer that has attached to him. These are not personal attacks against you they are only symptoms. Maybe him telling you will help free him of his guilt. Maybe him telling you can help you to now forgive him and release any other feelings that have kept you trapped in this cycle. Now its time for you to be set free and him as well. Put this to bed. I dont think you accepted anything I just think if you knew a solution you would have fixed it. I think that you were the bigger person and you didnt run away. You may not have known what to do but you stayed in your marriage thats awesome and courageous. You have done the best for you and all involved you have done what you do best and thats love. Thats not at all something to ever close off because of problems due to stupid symptoms that will most definately go away. I hope this makes sense and helps in moving forward you have really went through hoops on this last endeavor and I and others are thinking of you.