Hi all just a report in. The new 3kids is here. I have been doing really well. Have got all the focus on me and my kids. I am personally really looking at all my flaws. And focusing on what I want to do in life. Laughing more because it make me feel good. A coworker even commented how my attitude has changed.

Here all along I thought I needed friends to make me happy but it doesn't. The other night I asked a bunch of friends to go with me to a sportsman show and they all couldn't for some reason or another. Normally I would just not go then. Then I looked in the mirror and the old me would go no matter what. Because he wants to. So I did and had a ton of fun. Found a bunch of fun stuff to do with the kids this spring, summer and fall.

As for the wife who knows doesn't really matter she's doing her thing. We don't really talk anymore. Less available right. I answer when she calls and keep it short. But not all the time.

We have a couple of buyers on our old house. So that sounds great. One is cash so hopefully that will keep the bank happy for the short sale. The realtor told me by the beginning of March it will be sold. Awesome!

Then I talked to the wife tonight. It was like 6:30 and she asks what are you doing. I had stopped at a book store looking for anger management. But I just told her I stopped at a store real quick. Of courses she tells me she has 90 days minimum for the short sale to go through. For her to move out and figure out what she's doing. Where normally I would have jumped in and offered her our home. I just stated that's good. And she kind of got miffed that I didn't respond to the way she wanted. Then she went into how we have to finish splitting up stuff. I laugh to myself because the only things to split up are the lawn mowers. Who gets the ridder and push. Every thing else is done with. My youngest wanted to talk with me and tell me he loved me. And she's in the background telling him to give the phone back to her mid sentence of him talking to me. The reason being my oldest wanted me to take him to the batting cages tonight. I tell her to tell him it's not going to happen tonight but we will get there. SO THIS WHAT SHE TELLS HIM " your dad can't tonight he is on a date". I didn't react in an angry way but boy did I want to. I just said don't tell my son that I'm on a date when I'm not. Nock that off. I asked her to please email some house stuff and told her to have a good night. That was just plane childish. I know she's wondering what I'm doing in my life but don't tell my child that I'm on a date and thats the reason I can't take him to the batting cages. Madddddd!

Oh well let it go. Move on. That's my new life goal!


M36/W30
S13,D10,S6
Married 4.5 together 12
Bomb 1/14
EA/PA OM 1/14 still going
Served 2/14/14
Separated 3/14
D paused 6/14
6/15 divorced