Jim0987 #9 - Blackholes, cats and overanalysis

[jim0987]

I do need to do a few more positive affirmations definitely and be more disciplined in my daily gratitude list.

I'm not sure why the trust thing bothers me so much, that and the not feeling safe have really got to me though. Generally I'm taking this whole thing pretty personally though.

OM(s) are a symptom. I more bothered by the dishonesty about what was going on in our M in the months/years leading up to BD. The ONSs and OM2 I feel were more frantically looking for something when OM1 initially spurned her (she wanted to 'feel what it's like to be truly loved').

Just before W and I got together she slept with at least one guy in order to try and avoid thinking about me and avoid getting involved with me because she was worried about another workplace relationship (all her words).

I think that's my way of saying its not the PAs that damage my trust in her.

As for stalling, ive not done this at all but equally I didn't chase my W at any point on any of this. Everything with my solicitors has been turned round by me as quickly as is possible for me to do. But because of how that played out she is now waiting on me and us worried she will lose the house she is trying to buy.