please don't be so hard on yourself. Maybe right some positive affirmations out and repeat them to yourself every night before bed. Find one thing each day to be grateful for. Be a friend to yourself.
Try not to let your W's mood affect you. Who knows what went on in her day. When we are walking on eggs shells and our mood is determined by their mood we are really in for a roller coaster ride.
Enjoy the time with your kiddo's. Keep up the PMA even if you have to fake it at first. GAL on your own or with the kids. Keep busy.
Me 52 H 44 T9 M 5 BD 12/11 H split 8/12 OW moved in 12/12 OW gone for good 6/14 We get closer again 9/14 SD 13 Me 4 Grown
Accept what is...let go of what was and have faith in what will be.