Retreat

[Marylov]

I have been interacting with him some, he is still in our house and in our room. I have really tried to hold back, and just be kind and respectful without pushing it. I have stopped telling him I love him and have tried to give him some space. We are interacting basically how you would with a neighbor you don’t very well. I’ll be home around 7, okay, have a good day, etc.

My friends would describe me as opinionated, loyal, honest, smart and responsible. I have several life-long friends, I make an effort to keep people in my life and to be there for them. I think people know they can count on me to do what I say I will do, and to show up when it counts. I wish I could say they would describe me as warm, but I know I come across as judgmental. I am moody and when someone mentioned the word sullen, that can definitely be me!

I am not a nightmare, even though I know I am describing myself as such. I am actually well liked believe it or not. But the thing is that with my family, and unfortunately my husband, I take for them for granted and forget to be CONSIDERATE. I show more kindness to strangers than the people I love the most.

Thank you for your reminder about the opportunity I have at the retreat LITB. Like I have said before, I am deeply sorry for my past mistakes and am hoping the retreat will provide the lifeline needed for me to have the opportunity to CHANGE.