Jim0987 #9 - Blackholes, cats and overanalysis

[jim0987]

Thanks all for the words of support - I'm trying not to beat myself up to much about this and by my standards i'm quite restrained.

I actually find myself envious of my wifes emotional state and her cool detachedness through this, she seems entirely in control of herself, her emotions (and unfortunately me)

I have thought about my behaviour since BD and for all of the GAL, and postive attitude I've displayed my lack of detachment and the crazy, borderline stalking behaviour I've engaged in can only have heightened my wife's sense of fear and mistrust. I needed to GAL and I needed to show positive sides but fundamentally I needed to help her feel safe with me.

As much as i dont like it, Mozza was right a long time ago when he said the best thing for me and my sanity will be when my wife moves out.