Two things of note today -- and then I'm going to leave you alone. I feel like I've been poking at you with a stick.

1) I wonder if W feels that S12 will be ok with everything because she turned out "ok" with her parents divorce. When thinking about perception, I pause with this. I knew friends, when growing up, who were horrified at the thought of their parents divorcing. My own sister has been upset because my mom and step-dad hit a really nasty patch last year and looked like they were heading for divorce. Because I've always had divorced parents, or separated parents (my mom and step-dad seperated for 5+ years) it's my "normal" per say. I survived it, so I feel others. That's my perception and in turn, my reality. But for others, they don't have that view point. Maybe that's how W is "justifying" for lack of better words, her behavior. I dunno. Just a thought.

2. Actually have a good day today. Don't pretend. I know that's hard to wrap your mind around, but seriously, make it a great day. A former boss of mine, was ALWAYS in a great mood. Always having a good day. And then his wife was diagnosed with terminal cancer and we expected his mood to plummet. You know what? It didn't. He remained positive, upbeat and in a great mood -- at least in public. I asked him about it once, and he told me that every day was a great day -- because he woke up alive. He had another day with his W, and an opportunity to make a difference. He also said that it took more energy (for him) to be in a bad mood, rather than a good mood.

It impressed the hell out of me.

Anyway, two thoughts. Enjoy S12's game today.


M:32,H 32
T:10, M5
BD/H Move Out: 9/2014 - extreme anger
H Mental Illness Diagnosis: 4/15
Served D Papers: 10/15
Divorced: 11/15