Job, your capacity for compassion and concern really moves me almost to tears. You are such a wise, good and kind soul.
I am planning to spend some time buying new walking boots, and also planning a summer vacation camping. This really is a new direction for me, as I am not normally someone who enjoys roughing it, (although I like house renovation!) but I thought, how many more years do I have on this planet, and how cool it would be camping with friends near the ocean.
I think the legal battle was a bid for attention (which ranks up there with falling downstairs to get attention in sheer stupidity) But really who know?
He was driving me nuts, but in part this was because at that time I had a lot of stuff happening with my family which is now resolved happily. And also I can now see clearly how crazy my xh is, and how desperately lonely he is. He can't let me go yet, and maybe this is actually part of the letting go process for him. What we can't have, we tend to try and hang on to.
Either way I think 2015 will resolve a lot. But I could be wrong
