I want someone to share my family and my life with.
Me, too, Claire. But my H has chosen not to be that someone. And right now, I'm not suitable material to go out looking for someone new. I have some work to do on me first.
I've always told my daughters that they needed to live on their own as young women, learn how to take care of themselves, before they got married. And lo and behold I'm back there again. I need to learn to live on my own before I try to do anything serious with another guy.
I get that you want a relationship, someone to love you, to support you, to share those ups and downs with, someone just to share in the sheer physical work of having a 3yo. But you are strong, Claire. Enjoy your own strength for now. Embrace Claire.