Happens tonight. I will probably be late posting about it since I have someplace to be shortly after, but I'll try not to keep you all in too much suspense.
I appreciate the good vibes. I went to look at his FB to see if there were any clues there and his relationship status was hidden (not changed, you just have to click a button to find it).
So I'm not wrong in how he's thinking.
I was praying about it this morning and it occurred to me that in every way in which he has messed up in the past -- relatively small things as a kid that parents would typically make a big deal over, so as to impress on a kid the importance of honesty and integrity -- his parents let him skate, and laughed about how devious he was, even telling the stories about him that way after we were married. When he told them he wanted to leave me, and what my worries were (money, house, kids), they told him not to worry about all that, that kids are resilient and they'd help financially to make sure nobody did without. (That made me mad -- they basically volunteered the kids and themselves to take the consequences of his departure.)
He's never had consequences. Even I was willing to forgive him after I found out about OW, if he would just do the work to make things right. But that's never been asked of him, so of course he has no means to do that, and has never been taught that integrity matters to people.
I will be OK. Betsey was right. It's not the searing pain of the initial betrayals. It's like bumping a bruise. And dreading the next several months.
Me42, H40 D12, S8, S7 A revealed: 7/13 Sep 4/14; Agreed to D 1/15
