Thanks MCS. I'm sorry your W is so negative about speaking with you. That must really hurt. Does it help you detach or make it harder? My W would love a friendly talk everyday I'm sure. It would be painful for me though and it is hard for me to understand how she can even ask me to talk. I guess, from her side, it's hard for her to understand why I would want her and our M back.
Calibri thank you for checking up on me. Yes faith can be a hard thing when you feel overwhelmed. I know exactly what I have to do with DB... confident, content, busy guy. I don't have to do it for long around W. Then I don't. If I had real faith... then I wouldn't be at all angry. I would just be naturally friendly with W.
Hello Karma. Yes I don't want at all to be the bitter angry husband. If he wasn't bitter and your husband did DB... would you have given him a second look? I'm happy to hear about your daughter and that you and your husband came together for her.
OK putting aside anger today. I'm going to see my son play basketball. That is my focus. Just act as if I'm having a good day and great life around W today. I will just observe any attempt my W makes to be friendly. I will have good PMA.
Onward.
Me: 44 W: 45 S: 11 Married: 15 Together: 18 BD: 9/29/2014 OM discovered: 10/16/2014 I left her behind: 12/14/2014