Mozza (7) + Links to success stories

[Mozza]

From your personal experience, you know how precious the support of this community can be. I'm very very grateful to everyone who dropped by to say nice things. Just knowing you're thinking of me means a lot to me. Thank you.

Wow, good for you to send it. I'll tell you I read what you wrote and instantly said to myself....Who would want to do this to Mozza? If me on some forum starts second guessing someone else's decision, it must have an impact on her.

Thanks MCS but... I don't understand. What section makes you second guess?

Also painful, but beautiful words about your W and M. What fool would leave Mozza??

Answer: a brilliant woman who hasn't heard those words in a long time. You know when's the last time I wrote her "I love you"? Her birthday in February 2014 and before that, an email in April 2013. No wonder she told me during the S talks: "I had no idea you loved me so much." But it was too late. It's me, the fool.

I feel like a parent who turns around in a shopping center and his kid has disappeared. "I was just distracted for a minute, I can't be punished this much. I was just distracted!"

I have a lot of kind words for my W and in fact, I love to write love letters. My W loves how I write these things and she's very touched by words. But now, she's gone, with OM, and it's not an option. It's not things that she is ready to read. Before she left, I told her I had so many things to say to her yet so little time, and she said: "You can write me, I'll read you." but I never did it because it's pursuing. I've written some of these ideas in a personal document, so it might serve one day.

What are you grateful for about today?

Thanks a lot Maybell for giving me your words of support. You're a wise woman on these boards and I appreciate your attention. I tried to list things for which I'm grateful, but could never remember to do it. Yesterday, I'd say I'm grateful my neighbors accepted my dinner invitation, even though I overcooked the meat. ;-)

Carry on Mozza, Because in general you're still very much on course. There are very good things around the corner for you. Get excited about the life You are creating for yourself. It's time for that.

25yearsmlc - Thank you for saying that, it's encouraging. Thanks also for the clarifications about detachment. I know I'm not there. I's nice to know where I should be headed.

Mozza, you and I agree that we're DB brothers. Extremely similar sitches, similar tendancies for both of us (although I pursued more). I have a few months head start with pain and processing, and here's something Ive learned recently: You HAVE to feel that pain.

Thanks a lot Card29. Yes, I follow your sitch very closely and learn from your journey. I was very impressed at your quick change and am eager to see how it will play out. It's interesting that OM dumped your W, though in my case, OM dumped his girlfriend and now lives with my W...

Thanks a lot for your recommendations on how to get a hold of my emotions. I've watched the video and I have the Headspace app on my phone. I'm really not comfortable with meditation - I liken it to trying to stand on a static bike. It's because my brain is used to solving problems by going into overdrive, not resting. Perhaps with practice...

So...time for us to fly those great distances, GAL and become the people only a fool would leave. Then we'll see what awaits us when we return from our extensive travels.

It's funny you should use this image, ganb8te. At S, I told my wife that we'd have to go through this experience and that we'd see if we meet on the other side. It wasn't a return, but it was the same idea of a journey. It was my way of setting her free while saying I'd be moving on, as I have to.

Vanilla, jim0987, Karma12, Toots, stacey9, HPoirot - Also thank you for your kind words. I've read them several times and they help me.