afraid I have waited too long #5

[nit84]

Wonka,

This is one of the few times I have used that term. You are correct it has serious implications if you used willy nilly.

I feel that I have not been dismissive or minimizing of my W hurts. But again I am inside this Sitch and probably don't see it.

I have extreme guilt feelings that I was such a horrible H that I hurt my W so bad and that is why she is acting in a way that is foreign to me. I get the fact that it is not suppose to unicorns and rainbows but she has become a very resentful person

I find myself defending my W against such illness talk sometimes.


I am not trying to be defensive sorry if it comes off that that.


My L just texted me. I should try to communicate with my W to see if the Idea about the house would be something she will agree upon.


It has been a bad day. I know my W is own her own journey. I guess the subconscious mind is powerful. When I wrote the draft email above I really didn't intend it to be an anxiety ridden piece that made it look like I was hoping for a miracle. It was just my thoughts about the house. Maybe if I got rid of the last two paragraphs it would be ok.

But you are correct Wonka I probably shouldn't send it at the moment because it is obvious my emotions have hold of me at the moment.

Thanks for the help!