afraid I have waited too long #5

[nit84]

At first right after my W served me the complaint. I told my W now we both have to protect ourselves and I understand that.

Her words were "you are going to get vicious aren't you?" I said" no why would I?" I said "My feelings will never change for you it will just be difficult to see this while my L is advising me to do things that will protect my future."

It still holds true today. My feelings haven't changed for my W and I don't want the D.

Taking a look back throughout this S, I believe I handled it well by telling the truth all the time and when I thought I couldn't I kept my mouth shut.

I feel horrible about the fact that my W has to lie to me. It doesn't hurt that much anymore when she lies because that is the way of the WAW.

I just wonder what surprise story or lies my W will have when she comes over to the house to get more stuff.

I actually thought things went well after the hearing communication wise until she dropped the dead cat Bombshell.


I will act "as if" when she comes over. I hope she comes when I'm here but she may change her mind and do it when I leave so that I can't see what she takes till it is already in her possession.

I understand that we can't be close right now or ever again but my old W wouldn't have acted so coldly to anybody as she did with my Dying dog and now the Cat.


This will come off as sour grapes but I really do think Something happened to my W about 22 months ago that is making her seem like she is suffering from a form mental illness. When I say happened I don't mean in a physical way but in a mental way. Maybe it is just that she is "done".

It is hard to explain, when it is just Her and I, how she acts to be able to paint an accurate picture for you to give me some feedback.