Thank you all for the tough love. It sure is hard to take a hard look at yourself and think about all that you have done wrong. You all brought up a lot of questions but I think the most important one for me to answer here is to provide examples that will show how I have disrespected my husband, which is the main cause of our trouble. Here are the examples of what he needs and that I don't give him:

He likes to lay close in spooning position and I dont let him spoon me
I don't keep my car clean
I give him short notice when I have to work late
I encouraged him to play more golf, and then complained when he did
I complain about how he spends time away from home
I interrupt him
I get on facebook in the bed when he wants to talk
I question him in front of others

In general, I try to one up him and be the alpha. I am a "leader" if you will, and try to lead our family, even though I expect him to.


Me:30 H:31
D1
T: 7 years M: 3.5 years
BD: 12/2014
3 month S starts: 2/2015