Thank you all for the tough love. It sure is hard to take a hard look at yourself and think about all that you have done wrong. You all brought up a lot of questions but I think the most important one for me to answer here is to provide examples that will show how I have disrespected my husband, which is the main cause of our trouble. Here are the examples of what he needs and that I don't give him:
He likes to lay close in spooning position and I dont let him spoon me I don't keep my car clean I give him short notice when I have to work late I encouraged him to play more golf, and then complained when he did I complain about how he spends time away from home I interrupt him I get on facebook in the bed when he wants to talk I question him in front of others
In general, I try to one up him and be the alpha. I am a "leader" if you will, and try to lead our family, even though I expect him to.
Me:30 H:31 D1 T: 7 years M: 3.5 years BD: 12/2014 3 month S starts: 2/2015