Really too late....

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I've had a decent couple of days. I would like to say H doesn't seem to be texting OP but I will say this instead: H seems to be respecting my boundary of not communicating with OP while I'm home. That does make it easier for me to keep my PMA.

We also watched a movie together last night, as in not me just sitting down on the couch when he was watching TV. He downloaded a movie, told me he did it, I said cool and later he said I'm ready to watch that movie and waited for me to finish up what I was doing. Nothing earth shattering but definitely better than what could've happened.

I've been listening to a lot of podcasts from another save the marriage site and it is helping me to stay positive (somewhat). I always have that fear that no matter what I do H is too stubborn to try again, that my marriage can't be saved...but I try to stop thinking like that and keep moving forward.

I've started working on some small projects again which are fun but I do find sometimes I spend too much time on the computer looking for ideas and such. I'm thinking about trying to set up a little shop at the local flea market. The projects are fun and I can maybe make some extra money!

H got his old Jeep yesterday, and although he is limited as to what he can do because of his back I can see already a change in his attitude. He has a hard time doing nothing for too long.

We were both going in and out of the garage today and he came back in and in his not very nice tone asked me what I was doing out there. I told him not to talk to me like that and he changed his tone and asked nicer what I was doing because it smelled like something was burning. I am not going to allow him to talk to me like that anymore.