C, totally understand - too many 'helpful' people have asked me when I'm going to take my rings off and come to my senses. I've also heard this one, 'Z, he doesn't want to be with you, when are you going to get that through your head?' They mean well.
You make a nice point about starting/stopping marriage after only a few months. I feel it really would be like that, almost a new relationship after so much water under the bridge in these situations.
I'm very happy for you, the little signs that things are moving right between the two of you. You're not a fool for holding out hope. Looks like you've got some reason to.
The apprehension you mention - is it purely from feeling like 'don't eff it up now' with the DB and that pressure, or also from feeling like he might? Or that if things continue going well you'll still be on shaky ground again?
Mid 30's Psych-abusive M with violent tantrums from XH D 9/15; NC forever on
