The holidays went good as far as i can tell. There was no mention of OM but I am pretty sure he is not out of the picture. She has not brought it up and I have not said anything. I told her we could hold off making any decisions until after her brother’s wedding which is not this Saturday but next. I know when I talk to her she will be taken back by the fact that I will not be willing to stay her best friend if we split because of her affair. But I just cannot see how I can. This whole experience has been just really confusion as you know what to me. Just like the past few days she has talked about thing we need to do or she wants to do. And my first thought is always “yeah but I may not be here come February??”. I mean how should I respond to that? Part of me says it is good that she sees a future and I should just go along but the other part is saying what the hell. You have not told me your decision. I am going to post a little later what I plan on telling her and would love any feedback from you guys.
Me 36 W 33 D 7 D 4 M: 10 years T: 14 EA/PA: 06/12/14 - ongoing
