Busting this Divorce - 90 Days NC #4

[HPoirot]

Thanks TLEE. I agree about not being around my W. She again invites me to be around her at this bball game. She texted me... "Will you be there? Game's at x time!" like it's going to be a blast to see her. Like Sandi said... I'm being pulled to her and I'm digging in my heals. My son will understand if I don't go.

When I went to the science fair... I was basically delivering S12's bag of clothes b/c of the schedule change she made that day. Then she barely acknowledged me. Granted I did not go near her either.

This is ridiculous and I don't understand what she's doing. Is Sandi right that she's looking for conversation still... like Mozza's wife inviting him to lunch and sending him funny emails? I was outright hostile to my W just yesterday. Removed her from our family. Left her "homeless" as she says. She knows I'm not friendly to people I do not like. She knows I do not hide my feelings.

What does she want? I don't care what she wants! I want to see my son without her hovering and trying to be supermom.

OTOH do I do what Wonka and others say... leave my bleeding ego at the door and support her effort to be supermom while she destroys our family?

I remember when I sent a text to her apologizing for something I did in anger. It was a Wonka script. She gushed back how much my text meant to her. My cooperation she seems to love.

Just like her begging for a family Christmas... which she then skipped. Didn't even see her son on Christmas. Just like her begging for a family lunch on is Bday... then offering to skip the entire day before she asked to take him to lunch instead.

I can't go. Not now while she explains nothing to me and does not change. Not now when she treats me like crap and gives me cold shoulder and is rude and insulting and deceitful and screaming and drunk and conniving for months and then if I give her an angry look and don't talk to her I'm childish!

How the hell am I going to do this?

Is this what a WAH feels like?

I am now the WAH!

EDIT: I know.. anger is not my friend. This just seems wrong. She won't come to his games on her Fridays without S12. I should just take all Fridays from now until his season is over. Then treat him to a burger in a joint with cute waitresses. Instant Friday GAL for weeks. I am disliking my W. The end.